Birds in the loft and a Rosy Graden !

Written 29th May 2010.

Day 3 of Stimming today, well it will be when i give my injection at 18.30 tonight !! My last 2 have passed without any problems !!
It took me a long time to decide when to inject myself - do i do it first thing in the morning ? oh but what if i sleep late. Okay ill do it in the afternoon right at lunchtime - oh no wait, that would mean taking my drugs and having to inject in work....does that look as though im drawing attention to myself ?? Hmmm, okay ill do it before bed - oh dear God noooooo i cant stay up past Eastenders these days !!.....okay so dinner time it is. Who knew decision making could be so complex - is it the drugs ??
And whislt on the subject of tiredeness.......i was in the blissfull happy sleep this morning when i was so very rudely awoken (is that even a word - awoken ?) by the sound of the 'few week old hatched birds' in my loft....Jeeeez they are loud. I did have a few thoughts on how best to get rid of them, none of them very humane, however they must have tottered off on a flying lesson right now as its gone quiet !!
So all going well so far, apart from the short fuse, the tiredenss and the bruised belly, all is rosy in this garden !! :)
Mwah xx xx

We've only just begunnnn (how many of you are singing the carpenters to that line.

Written 28th May 2010.

We are currently undergoing our first cycle of ICSI for Male Factor Infertility. My new husband had undescended testes as a baby and the stoopid ass doctors decided to wait until he was 5 before they operated on him, and when they did, they stitched his little chooks down causing trauma. We now have a very low sperm count and hence the need for ICSI. So now you know. Im a brand new 30 year old...and hubby will be 29 this year.
Our treatment started on May 9th 2010 and i am currently successfully down regged and 1 day into the Stimming process - how fun. Down Regging for me was okay, i was very tired and a bit headachy, had some flushes and a severe dry mouth....nearer the end of the down regging i felt like i had a short fuse much to my families amusement, im the chilled out one in the family, but the overwhelming urge to ram people with my trolley in asda or bounce a 4 pack of andrex quilted of their noggins when they just stand and chat in the middle of the aisles was almost unbearable.
I gave myself my first injection yesterday, ..... im a nurse so that part should have been easy. Its kinda different when your jagging yourself....i lost count of the times i went...1-2-3- go...and then didnt. 10 minutes i sat doing this until i finally decided the drug was going to be out of date and of no use to me if i didnt just get my ass in gear.
So its the holiday weekend and hubby is off to Magaluf till Wednesday for his friends Stag Party and i get to chill here and relax and inject myself daily, and not drink, and probably not sleep and cook for 1 (oh how i hate cooking for one) and tak my vitamins - jealous ? me? Never !!
So thats my Journal started. Lets see if i can keep it updated !. xx

Somethings happening !

I took a break from here for a number of reasons.
1. I didnt really have any new and interesting news.
2. For some stupid reason i cant comment on everyones blogs, i think ive done something to my settings and i cant fix it ! Fuk !!
3. I have a new facebook addiction and seem to be spending lots of time cyber surfing in that direction !

Anyways..... In the time ive been away we got married, we had our honeymoon and the swines through me a surprise 30th birthday party !! ...........and...............we have started our ICSI treatment.
Im currently on Day 15 of Down Regging and have my baseline scan on Thursday of this week. Im praying I can start Stimms then. Theatre is booked provisionally for the week of the 7th of June.
Down Regging isnt much fun but could have been worse. I have had headaches, some flushes and some sweats through the night. None of this helped by the fact i got a bot of the cold right after the injection. Tut.

I promise to update more regularly !!
xx xx xx xx

Final Appt before treatment - Done !!

Today we had our final appt before treatment starts. We had results of bloods and a treatment plan.
HIV, Hep B, Hep C - all clear on both sides.
I had my AMH tested (we are male factor so i havent really had a great deal of tests done - i was shitting myself) .....my AMH is through the roof at 53.5 !!!!!! The normal is 5-15. Now this can be an indicator of PCOS but my ultrasound scan ruled that out. The Dr did say that if i was overweight I would maybe have problem periods, but I dont really. The Dr also said my Ovarian Reserve is excellent and the high AMH is mainly due to my young age (29). There is a high chance I will respond well to stimulation, but could over stimulate, so ill be on a lower dose treatment. I have a higher chance of getting a good amount of eggs and an equally higher chance of developing OHSS !! Talk about a flip side !!

Im happy, its not bad news (I dont think). If anyone reading this knows about AMH levels please inform me good or bad about what you think of my level !!

They want us to start in 2 weeks time which is my next period, but we get married in 8 weeks so im going to hang fire until after that time !!

Excited !!!! xx xx

Back to myself !

Ive been miserable the last few days, downtrodden, gutted and a real misery guts !!
But today im getting back to normal.
Im thinking more weddingy stuff and less baby stuff !!

Im so excited about the wedding, im excited to be married, im excited to get loads of new and lovely photos of family, im excited to dance the night away with all my friends and family and im excited to get on a plane and piss off for 2 whole weeks with my beloved HUSBAND !! aaaahhhhhhh

Oh Oh Oh I also got into the Sock it to Me thingy right here on blogger - excited.com. I love socks !!
For anyone who reads this and doesnt know its where bloggers are allocated a fellow blogger to send socks to, socks that will be worn to provide comfort and just let you know someone is thinking about you. I will wear mine to appointments and while my legs are in the stirrups !! wooopityyyy !!

Im half a pound away from losing my first stone !! Im doing well - or at least I was until AF showed up.....she wants me to have chocolate and curry.......so far she is winning !!. xx

Consent - Done......Bloods - Done ......Me - Done !!

I cant explain this feeling ........I feel deflated ....totally deflated !

We had our appointment today at GRI ... (ICSI Clinic). It went well. We both got our bloods done - HIV, Hep B, Hep C and i got my hormone levels checked. As a nurse i am a teeny bit worried i may have 'picked something up' in the hospital. I havent ever given it much thought until im being tested, but lately we have had a stream if IVDA's, and most lately Anthrax patients due to drug abuse. Its a stark reminder of what we deal with !!
We signed our Consents and are good to go pending our results which we go back for in 2 weeks.

We asked today about df's sperm test results from last time we were there as we had never been given that information - <1million/ml with only occasional motile sperm seen. This doesnt sound good, it doesnt sound good at all. Now we knew this, hence the reason we are on the ICSI pathway but up until now we hadnt been told about the motility part. I now worry that this will be a big dampener on the success of our ICSI.
Will it put us at a disadvantage ?
How many is occasional ??
What if i get 8 eggs but they only get 3 or 4 sperm ??

Golly, its caused me a bit of a headache today !!.....and now im worrying.

I dont have time to worry, I have a wedding in 9 weeks - MY wedding, MY honeymoon and im leaving this to deal with when i get home. They will offer me to start during next months cycle but im going to hang fire till i get home from honeymoon !!
The internal examination and high vag swabs have left me a tad achy and irritable tonight !! tut.


oh and while im ranting why wont blogger let me reply on other peoples blogs ?? xx xx

Im still here !!

Good Evening.
My blogger has been playing up lately, not letting me post and not leting me reply to others !!
Firstly tho - MASSIVE congrats to my mate Caz.......finally she has been given her chance, im so so ecstatic for her. Good Luck for Monday chicka.
Congrats to Murgdan too - a boy....awwww fantastic news.

So whats new with me?
I still need ivf/icsi. No amount of bding during the best time of the month is going to get me in the 'family way'. AF arrived today, I hate the pain she causes me, not to mention the heartache !

We had our first appointment at the clinic a few months back, we are now onto our 2nd and 3rd rounds. 25the January for all the bloods and consents. Then we go back for all the results on 9th February. We could probably start in March but our wedding is on 9th April, followed by a 2 week honeymoon so im thinking we will start end April or beginning May !!

Nothing much else happening. The snow here has been terrible now for going on 2 weeks, we havent seen the ground at all in that time. Christmas was lovely. My sister is now 15 weeks pregnant and all is going well.

Im working right through New Year. tut. If this snow keeps up we could ebter the guinness book of records for plating bones back together !!.

All my consent stuff came in the other week, holy moly !!.....I need to consent to consent !!! crazy stuff.

2010 is going to be my year. Wedding, honeymoon and baby bump in one year
Fingers crossed !
xx xx xx