Saturday 8 November 2008

Why do i do it ???

Tonight is x-factor night, in addition to this i have read every ivf story i could find on a gr8 website called ivf connections !!...Some cycles have worked 1st time, some 2nd, some 3rd....and some not at all.....i go thru the 'oh my god it worked first time' to 'oh my god it didnt work at all' and what will happen to me, will i be in the lucky group or the 'im sorry theres nothing more we can do for u group'.....

I know by reading this stuff im preparing myself for whats probably going to happen to us, at the same time is ignorance really bliss ?? Im thinking probably not when faced with shitty infertility !!

So this time nxt month my christmas tree will be up and we will be preparing for another SA ..the 9th of december is THE day.....the results are backon the 19th of December !! Aaaaarrrghhhhhh, if its the same then fine, im dealing with it, if its better, great it might give us more options......if its normal then why am i not pregnant?? and if it worse where can i buy a gun ?? No seriously if its worse then i dnt know what ill be like....i have to start trying to prepare for that now.... even if there are only a few we can still get ICSI ...if they r good ones....


Fingers Crossed and lots of prayers please please please !!!

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